I haven't updated since Tuesday. The main reason is that I have been hurt that Mr. Anonymous thinks that I make things up. This has really hurt me. I wouldn't ever, EVER put anything in this BLOG that I don't experience in real truth. That's just how it is. If you don't think that is true, then go the heck away and don't read about my life.
Today I did a lot of running around to do. I had a lot of 'things' to do for Nicky. I got him into something really really good. I can't go into specifics, but God is doing something amazingly good/awesome/radical. It is so cool that God allows me to see his glory at work first hand. Dang am I lucky.
But along with that gift God has given me to see his hand at work first hand comes a sort of weight. A responsibility that others may not experience. I have been sort of sad today, and the past several days. Maybe it is seasonal, maybe it is situational, I dunno. But, I do know that I have been down. I miss Janice, and my feelings for her are still there. Shoot, my love for her is still there. And with that I still know that the decision I made to break away from her was what I needed to do, there is just a lot of confusion and "
eesh'ness" there and surrounding that situation.
I'm confused with where God has me. Like, with kids and the people he has in my life and mine in theirs I totally get. BUT, I suppose I struggle with some of the other things. I put so much stress on my parents, especially financially. That sucks, but I dunno. I am ready for the sun and warm to be out again.
1 comment:
sorry to upset you so much.. not intended at all.. believe you do need a thicker skin though.. dealing with criticism and opinions differant than yours are things adults have to handle with maturity.. did not intend to make you appear to be a liar, just amazed at the dramatic experiences you have had and continue to have... but good for you for having them.. again i apoligize for upsetting you, but not for having my own thoughts too...
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