Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Dave church is so refreshing to me because it is so genuine. We all really love each other. We all really love the Lord. When you put those two things together, well it is just real good. And I have missed hearing Dave talk. I love taking notes on what the Lord has been teaching or prompting him in. I love reading back on those notes after some time and saying, "ohh yeah," all over again.
Ya know that expression, "take time to stop and smell the roses?" Well, today I didn't smell any roses, but I did take time to look at the sky. The sky was so beautiful today. I think I was on my way to go pick up Adam and his friend when I took this picture.The sky was so darn beautiful today. I couldn't help but admire it in all it's splender. The clouds just went on and on and on. This is an Indiana sky, through and through. When I saw it, I thought to myself, "Man I wish Janice could be here enjoying it with me." We both love looking at the sky. Maybe we are both day dreamers. Whatever it is, I sure wish she could have been here to enjoy it with me.
After I got home from Dave Church (Lifelight Ministries), I talked on the phone with Janice. Then we got on SKYPE together. Okay, what I am about to say is going to be full with confusion. For you, the reader anyways. But, just try to sift through it as best as you can. Janice and I, well we both love each other. And relationships are challenging. Sometimes those challenges are built/created before two people even meet each other. That is the case for Janice and I. There are some things that are difficult to hear, mostly because I am sissy when it comes to certain topics. BUT, God keeps prompting me to not avoid a paticular topic, and to embrace it head on with love and compassion. So, that is what I did, and boy am I glad I did. I prayed and prayed and prayed about God doing something in my heart that gave me a different outlook on a specific topic. That I could have His eyes, and His heart. He did just that and more. Not only was it relatively easy for me to listen to Janice. As she spoke, I just "KNEW" that much more that she is supposed to be in my life. What a good feeling. What an amazing, grace filled feeling.
Our converation got cut short, but we will pick up tomorrow where we left off. I love that girl though, I mean I really love her. I love her and I am just so happy to be able to walk through life with her (emotionally & spiritually of course). Some day I will be there physically. . . some day
To end the night, I went and saw District 9 with George. Now, I would not take Janice to see this movie, but we both really enjoyed it. Because we are a couple of nerds.
Janice, I love you. I am so glad you are in my life. You are a blessing to me in more ways than you can understand. I am excited to see what God is going to do in our relationship. Hang in there and know that I am praying for ya all the time. You are constantly on my mind, and I really want to honor God in our relationship. You're the best, and I really hope you enjoyed Dimitri Martin tonight.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
The worship time was amazing. There was dancing, and shouting. People laid on the floor, and sincerely took whatever stance they felt comfortable taking. It was a powerful time with God. A time that felt completely and unavoidably wonderful. I am so glad I got to experience it with Adam (Young Life friend). I am so glad he got to see what I love so much. I feel so at home in a worship time. The challenge is taking that "worship" feeling out of the safety of that room, and bringing it to the average man and woman on the street. The challenging part is bringing that love and joy into a circumstance that seems joyless. Well the challenge is on, and I want to try to do this one to the best of my ability. Dang do I ever. I couldn't help but think tonight, "Man, I really super wish that Janice was with me. I wish she could experience this with me." I even said that to God in prayer. But the resounding answer was that she needs to find that Joy in and through Christ on her own. And for some reason I felt extremely comforted by it. I know she loves the lord, but I can't bring these specific experiences to her. She must first want them, and must have that desire to seek them out in her own life. I just love her and want her to expedience it with me NOW!! That is not how God has it set up though. Not now anyways. And I am just gonna have to be okay with that.
There was one line during a specific song that really hit me.
"In my life, be lifted high"
"In our world, be lifted high"
"In our love, be lifted high"
I can't think of anything I want more than for God to be lifted high in all those things. I lose sight of what is most important so often though. How can I forget so easily what is so important? There is nothing more important. NOTHING! Not family, not jobs, not school, not friends, not success, not desires. He must be lifted high in all things. It is the never ending challenge of dying to myself every single day. With the help of my savior, friend, and counselor, I can do it. I will not fear, for He is with me.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Well look at that, I just completely turned my train of thought around. Thanks BLOG commenter, you left an impact. I still hate Geology though. . .
Today was real good. Real good I say. Every day I find new and unique ways to challenge myself in Christ. Not only for my own personal and Spiritual benefit, but for Janice as well. I am constantly bouncing my eyes off what they ought to be looking at, and really trying super hard to love everyone I come in contact with, no matter how abrasive their personality might be.
Today my day started off early; super early. It was just like any day last year. Ya see I was a SUB at one of the YMCA childcare locations. Today it was Arlington Elementary. Which reminds me, I need to E-Mail Angie my hours. Anywho, it felt good to be back with the little ones. BUT, I am sure glad I don't have to do that every morning. Super glad. So I really love my Religion & Culture class. Part of the reason is possibly because of the dynamics of the class. Everyone chose to be in there, so there are very open minded and intellegent converations. Also. . . Every time you want to talk, you have to press this microphone button. You have to do this because there is a class about 1.5 hours away in a room listening and participating electronically through a classroom set up just like ours. It's really cool. I already have a connection with the class on the other end of the screen because I got to class early and just started talking to them. We talked about how I was growing out my beard, and other things. It's really fun, and the atmosphere is super relaxed and respectful. People from all walks of life are there, but not to pounce on each other; just to learn. I really like the academic approach to "religion," not so much Christianity, but "Religion." Every time I am in that class, my definition for Religion gets tweaked a little bit.
Okay, seriously, I need to finish reading.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I need to go to bed now. I am substituting for YMCA childcare at a location tomorrow morning before I go to school. So, I need to go to bed, cuz I gots to get up REAL EARLY, just like last year.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I think I am going to do this more often than not. This was fun to make, and I feel it get's the message across in a way that is more fun than just reading.
And NO, I did not dress up as a clown towards the end. It was actually a computer creation, I know, hard to believe.
School is in full session. BUT, I am still making time for what is most important.I have been reading 1 Samuel, and loving it. David is just about to kill Goliath in Chapter 17. That will be read tomorrow morning, and I am really looking forward to it. I was telling Janice that the verse I took from today's reading was 1 Samuel 16:7-> "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." I really liked this because it paints yet again a great picture for me of God. He is not on my level as far as holiness goes. Or even mental understanding. He is so above, so perfect, that I am so luck to just be able to call him my Father. But because of Grace, it sure doesn't stop there.
In the morning, I challenge myself with Scripture first thing, and I make my bed as soon as I roll out of it. I need more discipline in my life, and I thought the "bed making" would be one good way to enact some of it. And plus, my bed looks good when it is made.
Any hoo, G'Night!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
I got to dress up with her and take her to a very fancy restaurant. After dinner, I got to take her to Jefferson Pointe (outside mall) walk around with her and eventually see a chick flick (500 first dates). I got to take her to a nice little place downtown called Pint & Slice so I could introduce her to my sister Merideth. It was really wonderful. I got to introduce her to George. As well as many of my parents friends, at a bonfire/weenie roast in our backyard. Okay, heart time. So these six days that Janice has been in Indiana, well they have been so extremely wonderful. The more that time goes by, the more it is solidified that Janice is undoubtedly supposed to be in my life. When I look into her eyes, I see someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Strong words? Yes, I would say they are, but I have given them much thought and feel extremely comfortable saying them.
I want to also say that it is officially official. Janice Hernandez is my girlfriend. It’s true, and pretty darn exciting.
Also, L-U-S-T is a very powerful emotion. One that Janice and I must be ever so careful to avoid and be watchful for at all times. We are going to be in a long distance relationship, and to us that means we have lots of time to continue to strengthen our relationship with God, who must be the pinnacle of our bond if it is to be pleasing (to God) and worthwhile. I would say that the fact that Janice and I are going to embark on this long distance relationship is both a good and bad thing. It is good because it will challenge us both to love each other in ways other than the physical. It will show us and teach us that there is much more to a relationship than touch. Also, it is good because that day to day comfort that we will not be able to provide each other with must be found in GOD!
It is a bad thing because we live 2,196 miles apart and that can be really difficult at times. The distance is a thorny subject because for two individuals who are extremely physical, well it is just so new it can be overwhelming. I took her to the airport in Indianapolis today. It was the most horrible thing ever; saying goodbye, knowing it may very well be months before we hold each other again.
BUT! Fear not, for God is with us, and must be made first. We both accept and trust in HIM. Knowing that he has brought us both this far, and will continue to do a great work in us for our own good.
I start school tomorrow. AHHHHH!!!!
God bless, thanks for reading, G’Night!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I am excited for tomorrow because I am taking her on a walk through my life. Starting at the house I first lived in, to the current situation. It will be neat to show her first hand what made me me!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
On another note, I GET TO SEE JANICE REAL SOON!!!! I am so excited, and have been for the past month. It is going to be so good. I can't wait for her to see my life, and meet my family, and just get to hold her. It's gonna be real good.
I think I am going to go and find out what is going on with my FLIGHT, so I am gonna get off of here. PEACE EASY!!!
One last thing. God is good. God is soo extremely good. He is good when times are awesome, and he is good when times suck. God is constant, and never failing. It is the world, and men that fail, God never does, never has, and never will. My life is devoted to serving Him, and making it known where my strength comes from.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
God is so active in this camp and in my life. I serve the greatest force in the world. I serve the God who created the Heavens and the Earth. I am proud to be a follower of Christ.
I've been reading 1 Samuel, and it is soo good. Saul just became King, and I am just starting to see how prideful he will be. There is a lot to learn from this book. And i'm going to learn as much as I can.
-G'night & thanks for reading!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
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Sunday, August 09, 2009
Saturday, August 08, 2009
For lunch today, we had a salad buffet. It was so good. I have not had healthy choice food in a long long long time.
My day started off with me babysitting LUKE! Luke is the son of one of the ladies in the main office of camp. I love little kids, and especially Luke. He is a great little boy. 3 years old, and just a blast to hang out with. Very well behaved.
We went to a swap meet.It was pretty sweet actually. If I had some money to waste, I would totally get some rad knives and such.
I am enjoying my day off, and will continue to do so. When all the other interns went into Flagstaff, I stayed and watched The Matrix. I borrowed it from the lady whom I babysat for. I love the Matrix, and when I watch it now, I get a little bit teary eyed because I see a powerful message of Christ and Faith in something much higher than yourself. It is pretty sweet. GO NEO, DO YOUR THING!! I went back to Ryan's office and started watching episodes of MacGyver off the internet. BUT, I think the internet is just too slow here, it gets about half way through an episode and gets extremely choppy.
P.S. I am reading through 1 Samuel and it is a pretty awesome book. So many awesome and life applicable lessons in it.
Friday, August 07, 2009
Today was a huge day for me and Max. I got to be a part of something so amazing, I just am still blown away at what God has allowed me to get to be a part of. During the first month (session 1) of camp, I got the honor to meet a young man named Max Williams.Max is all the way to the left. Max has an awesome story of how God brought him to Lost Canyon. Which eventually ended up in him being able to come and volunteer for 2 months here with us. Max has a very similar story to mine. One filled with all sorts of debauchery. Max found comfort in my testimony because he related to it so much. I sort of took him under my wing, and kept close to him. Just loving him right where he was at. But at the same time, in absolute marvel at what God was doing in his life. It showed in a BIG BIG way. Well, the second week of this session, we were coming out of our morning Bible study and I put my arm around Max and told him how proud of him I was. Max sort of looked down toward the ground and I could tell the gears were spinning in his head. He said to me, "Hey man, there is something I want to tell you." I was like, "Okay, what is it?" Max replied, "Well, ever since the end of first session, I have wanted to get Baptized, and I want to get baptized at the end of this session after the campers go home." I was so excited, but before I could really express it, Max said, "Well, I want you to baptize me. You have had such a huge impact on me, and I don't think I would have sincerely made a commitment to Christ if you wouldn't have been here this summer." I was blown away. I mean, tears welling up because of how grateful I was towards God for allowing me to be a part of something so beautiful. SO, in front of a crowd of about 55 or so people, maybe more. I held a very short ceremony. I talked about the growth that has taken place in Max and about how the community is what builds up a person to want to do something like this. It was really awesome when I got to say to Max's face in front of all those people how proud of him I was. It was truly amazing. So, Ryan and I took him in the lake, and before you know it, OUT WITH THE OLD, IN WITH THE NEW! 2 Corinthians 5:17 stands so true for max!! See that smile? That is a Holy Spirit smile if I have ever seen one. It was a really good thing. A really, really, really good thing. I have a feeling that this won't be the last time I baptize someone. It sure felt right. It was all about Max, but I felt it really affirmed my purpose as well.