Ryan's Jam

Today I woke up late and it felt really really good to get some extra ZZZzzz's. I hung out with Nick (not Nicky, but a different YL kid) and we had a good time. As the evening progressed we went to see Ryan (fellow Young Life leader) put on a show at a place inbetween Leo & Grabill. I also picked up two more kids, Dalton and Tim. We all had a really good time watching/listening to Ryan play. He is really good and has a jamming voice. After that was over, everyone came back to my parents house and we cooked up some Jack's pizza and watched a movie on my parent's T.V. It was a good time hanging out with the guys.

I got a pretty cool video to watch. I like it, and it really makes me think of the "Empires of dirt" I have in my life.

donuts @ Snider

As I approach Snider High School, my mission is clear. To love these kids in the best way possible. To show compassion on them, and try to understand their pain. All the while being cheerful and fun as they walk into school. Yes, the donuts were stacked this morning. I love making kids smile in the morning. I do anything to get a smile. From on the spot rapping, to unique gestures like, "that scarf is so fly, I bet you could just soar through the clouds."

My day was a blur. I am patiently waiting to go see Janice. But, it is infecting my thought life. She is constantly on my mind. She is always always on my mind.

1 Corinthians 2:9, "But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him."

Dang, ya know what? In order to really experience God, you have to surrender to him. In order to be able to surrender to him, you have to have faith. You have to believe in something that does not flow with logic and sensibility. By stepping out in faith, God will prove himself time and time again. Through situations, circumstances, and in your heart. BUT, if you never take that step to do so, it won't happen. Surrender is ESSENTIAL! But, we are so stuck in our selfishness.

Talking Jesus.

If there is one topic I love talking about more than anything else, it is Jesus. I could talk about Jesus all day and all night till I run out of breath. Luckily, after CLUB tonight, I got the chance to talk about Jesus with my man Austin. Good good good time. If you have 4:46 of spare time, use it to watch and listen to this video.

John 7:38 "Whoever believes in me, as the scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him."

It's SO TRUE!! -Mikey

My mom has a great Aura

She certainly does! Both in her character that emanates from the atmosphere that surrounds her, but as of today in her CAR! Yes, my mother got a new car today. It is a Saturn Aura. And it is pretty rocking! Check it out.

This thing is super nice. It was totally God who provided it too. I mean as I watch the puzzle pieces of life fit together, I see how all things work for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28).It has this amazing plush leather interior,and it is just an extremely nice car!

My evening ended on a really positive note as well.

I went to Campus Crusades, where Ryan, my friend and fellow Young Life leader gave the talk. He talked about God as our father, our dad. He related it back to his personal story of him and his father. Or lack of father. It was a clear cut story of Grace and redemption. He did a really good job. Then, as you can see in the picture above, I went to on of the Crew leader's houses and we all made a ginger bread house. I sort of just ate gummy bears, and walked around. But other people were productive.

It was a great evening, and Christ was shining through it.

2 Corinthians 4:7-11 (New International Version)

⁷But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. ⁸We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. ¹¹For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.

What does a Young Life fall weekend look like?

A Young Life weekend starts off with a bus trip (5 hours with stop).

A really fun bus ride to say the least!

When we arrived, the leaders quickly went into our first meeting. They welcomed us and set up what the weekend was going to look like. We (leaders) all started getting excited for ourselves but more so for the kids we brought. Next up we got to go to the first CLUB of the weekend. Ohh man, these are so much fun. Craziness, where high school kids can really be HIGH SCHOOL KIDS! It is a thrilling atmosphere to be a part of. They just eat it up. This picture is dark, but you can get the picture. The two guys on stage were two of the main characters. They were just really fun.

The next part of "Fall Weekend" I would like to explain was my favorite part of the weekend. We refer to it as "cabin time." For some, this was the first time they had ever experienced anything like this. For others, it was a welcomed atmosphere. This is a safe place where you can be real, yourself, and try to understand and help others out of respect. Nothing is forced, and my experience with it is that it usually works out really well. What does it mean to be in a community that cares about you in a way that is not of this world? How does it impact an individual to be cared for by his or her own peers? Well, it means the world.

Here are some pictures. I will just let them speak for themselves.

What was my goal this weekend? Well, first and foremost I wanted to meet kids on their individual levels and to spend genuine time with them. What happens naturally? Well, some renewed their relationship with Christ. Some got their first picture of what it even means to connect with such an amazing and life changing power. I was so blessed to be able to hang out with my group of guys. Every single one of them belonged their, and had a great time. IT WAS AWESOME!!

God is so good and made all of this possible. I am so blessed that he chooses to include me.

P.S. I just officially sold my Tempo for $170.oo. It will get picked up tomorrow at 12:30pm

too much

I don't really know how to condense today into a "BLOG" post. Some days are so intense, and I am so involved with so many things. . . I don't think that attempting to post about it would do them justice, so I will not BLOG today. Today was great though.

I am taking high school kids to a Fall Weekend in Michigan this weekend. I leave tomorrow at 4pm. It is going to rock.

eye opening

Jonathon is front and center as you can see! I am so glad he is going with us on Fall weekend. It is going to be a whole lot of fun.

As for me. Well, the reality of brokenness is starting to set in. God keeps bringing people into my life, or just making me aware of the people already in my life and their brokenness. Either way, these huge issues keep getting confronted in my mind. Things I cannot answer with a simple, "Trust God and all will be okay." These issues make me step back and ask myself. "Why do I have it so good, and others have so much intense pain in their lives?" These people God keeps showing me, they are only existing in life. There is no real meaning, and the things that hold them down are so vastly out of my human conception, that I just sit confused, and ask, "why am I so lucky?" The only thing I have immediately been able to come up with is that God needs me to tell them. To show them a new way. A way filled with hope. That they can be fulfilled with a joy that doesn't leave even when the pressures of life come crashing in. Life is difficult, God is not. It is just getting over taking that first step. That is the hard part.

campus crusades

Crew was amazing. I gave the talk about the Holy Spirit. And the Holy Spirit was at work big time. Afterwards something even crazier happened. . .

-Grace&Peace

bye bye Tempo. . . . I hope

I posted my 93 Ford Tempo on Craigs List and seriously within 3 or 4 hours I had an E-Mail requesting that I call a guy about it. I left him a voicemail, and hopefully he calls tomorrow. I could really use $350.00 bucks. Or actually, my mom could really use $350.00 bucks. I guess she is where the buck stops. . . . heh heh

-G'Night

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what a day, what a day in deed

Today was really filled. I won't be able to share every bit of it, but I would like to touch on the important parts. It was a day that started good and just got better. Now, it could sound like bragging, but if you know me at all, you know that is not my style. But, today was a day driven by the Holy Spirit. I will start off by telling you about Amber. I met Amber when I was on my way to go and help a friend learn how to use his laptop. This friend is Brooks Quaye. A friend from Liberia I met not too long ago on campus. Long story short, I was on my way to his house to help out at about 4ish. When I was about to turn the corner I saw a lady walking towards me. She was just balling her eyes out. As soon as I passed her I knew, this lady needed help. So, I pulled through an parking lot, and back tracked to try to cut her off. As I waited for her to approach my car, I prayed, "God, let your will be done in this situation." And as she got close, I put down the passenger side window and asked if I could help her out. She was crying so hard I could hardly make out what she was saying. But, I gathered that she was stuck in Fort Wayne, and that her boyfriend just went into the hospital. She needed to go to North Webster which is about 45-50 minutes away from Fort Wayne. I told her to get in, and that I would help her out. What ended up happening was out of my hands. God took over, and I became a vessel to share Christ with this lady. Who happened to be an ex meth addict who just felt really lost. She connected with my testimony, and was a genuine person, who just felt lost. I got to pray for her before I dropped her off, and it was a super unique experience. I am just so happy that she didn't have to stay in that mind set of, "I am completely lost." No one deserves that.

I made my way to Brooks Home, and really enjoyed my time helping him on his lap top. But, more so, I really enjoyed playing with his little girls. They were crazy cute lil ones.

There was Hannah. and Malu. They were a lot of fun, BUT, I totally understand why Brooks can not get any studying done when he is at home. The day ended with me meeting up with some fellow brothers in Christ. We talked about life, and about what Christ is teaching us on an individual level. We expressed struggles, and really lifted each other up. It ended with us all praying for each other, and it was a very powerful and extremely encouraging time. This is what fellowship needs to look like for anyone who strives to make Christ first in their life. It is so good for me.

sleep over

Partick, Mason, Eli, Mitchell, and Ben (leader) plus myself = awesome sleep over madness!! Awesome night here we come! (9:11pm)

-Grace&Peace

I needed to hear this today

"He took the cup of wrath and splashed it on my perfectly sinless and bleeding face, and what's worse is God did this to Christ with a smile. It pleased God to crush Christ for me. . . ." For me, that is a powerful statement to me.

The very first level of Christianity is complete denial of your sins and everything you have ever known!! To really understand this, your life has to change. I need challenged in this area of my life. That I may be more like Him who atones for me in every bit of my being.

"True love for God means true hatred of sin." Ouch, that one bit's at the core of my existence. It is challenging in how I interact with sooo many things. I love this, and take it as a personal challenge.

I, Mikey Riley, stand for Jesus Christ. I have all confidence in knowing that God has changed me from my most basic piece of being. I want to know the character more and more, so that my most very basic knowledge is based off of what He teaches and feels.

All you have is now. . .

Now hear this.

This is what I have so far today. . .

Through great weakness God has made me strong. Struggle ensued this morning right from the get go. 6AM and the "emotional roof" I was standing under crumbled in on me. I was angry, I was confused, and I did not turn directly to God. With time, and patience I eventually surrendered (all happened within 1.5 hours. A quick realization to say the least. I left my house at 6:40AM with my dad, I got donuts, dropped my dad off at work, and then went to Snider. I was supposed to meet Ben (Young Life leader), but he accidentally slept in. It was good though, I needed to go at this alone. I was more alive and welcoming this morning than ever before. I got extra donuts because I felt like I would need them. It is funny, as the kids start to trust me, and know I am not just some weirdo passing out donuts, they start to take more. The first time Ben and I did this, we hardly got through 4 containers, maybe 3 at best. This morning I went through 6 containers solo. Kids talk to me more, and really like that I am there. They often ask me, "why do you do this?" I tell them, "because I love making you guys smile," or "I just love being able to love on people." It is extraordinary. I went to school, where I am at right now. It is 9:59AM, and I should be studying Religion & Culture, but I am having trouble focusing. I have had so many "God encounters" already this morning, that I am blown away YET AGAIN at the power of my God. When I am weak, if I only rely on HIM for my EVERYTHING, he always comes through. I have no earthly reason to be smiling or fulfilled, but I am. I crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me, the life I live in the body, I live through faith in the Son of God, who loves me and gave himself for me. Galations 2:20 baby!!! I am blessed. Amazingly blessed. It is powerful when you live by the Holy Spirit, and you allow Him to direct your every action. I'm in it, and I don't ever want to get out.

I went to school, and wrote a paper and then studied for a Religion & Culture exam.

When i was at IPFW, they were filming this thing for the new freshmen orientation. So, while I was sitting in this quiet corner thingy, they brought in all this filming equipment, and started filming. It was funny, because the girl who is sitting at the piano and I were talking, and then they wrapped her into being in the film.

I took a kid out to eat, and we had some killer conversation. Then, I went to Ben's (fellow YL leader) house to help finish up on that film I made with the guys last Friday. It was really fun, and Ben is good at that editing stuff. But, while I was at Ben's house, I decided to be helpful and started doing the dishes for him and his 2 roommates. Well, after I got the water all ready. . . . .

I dove into start cleaning the dishes. I got a couple of things cleaned, or maybe just one. And I found the knife. The extremely sharp and violent knife. It sliced the heck out of my poor right index finger. Sliced it real bad. I went to the ER and ended up having to get 5 stitches.

Today has been one of those days. The kind that would be nice to forget, but you know you won't because you have to learn from it and move forward. Life can be difficult at times. I'm okay with that. My finger sure does hurt though. So does my emotions.

club tonight was real good maaan

Me eating with fellow Young Life leaders. My surrogate family members. We are a unique bunch, but I wouldn't trade them for the world.

I gave the talk tonight at club. I talked about Sin. And how it is not the outward expression or manifestation (swearing, sex, binge drinking, gossip, cheating, etc.) But it is the disconnection from God that is the real problem. Romans 6:23 says, For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus. We deserve death, as a consequence of our sins. BUT, Jesus paid that price for us. I did not get that far into the message, the goal was to help the kids recognize what sin really is instead of believing that it is something that they are doing. Because in the grand scheme of things, our actions matter not. It is all about the heart. I thought it went really well.

worship from the SOUL!

I went to Campus Crusades tonight. It was amazing. My friend Chris Lee (pictured in picture above) gave the talk. And while he was all over the place with his thoughts, he really interacted well with everyone in the room, and it was very powerful. At least to me it was. I love the passion he brings into everything he does. It is very inspirational to me. He wears his faith on his sleeve, and I love it. Next Tuesday I am giving the talk at CREW. The topic I will be speaking about is the Holy Spirit. Dang, my mind is just racing about what I am going to speak about. The verses to use, and the examples from my life that I am going to illustrate. This is the stuff that gets me super excited. I am just in the right place when I get to talk in front of a group of peers or kids. I just feel like I belong there. I love it!! I wanna get better at talking, I want to learn the Scriptures more in depth. I want to improve so that I may better deliver the word of God to the ears of hungry listeners.

I got something in the mail. Yes, that is right, I got a mug from Tysabri. Now I had to sit back and laugh just a little bit when I opened the box up that this thing came in. I laughed for a couple of reasons. First off, it has been nearly two years since I started on the drug TYSABRI to treat my Multiple Sclerosis. It has changed everything. I have had no symptom since I started it. The fact of the matter is this though. Since I started it back in March of 2008, my dads health insurance has shelled out nearly $154,ooo.oo (low estimate) to Biogen Idec (huge pharma company). And they sent me a mug. A mug from China that probably cost more to send then to purchase. I am not complaining, I am just taking humor in the way things work. Even the coffee mug has a warning on it. It even had tons of paperwork telling how dangerous the medication is. Don't they know I get it??? I don't need all these reminders. Ohh well. I am gonna wrap this up, because tomorrow at Young Life I am giving the "SIN" talk at club. It is exciting that I have the opportunity to share such an important message. Thanks for reading. LATER!

gentlemen at BSF. We had some good conversation. I really love BSF.

-Grace&Peace

Halloween '09

The day started off with some lame homework time. And no, I am not naked, it is just a strange angle I suppose. I had a whole lot of reading and writing to do, in preparation for my next Religion & Culture class. When the time came near though, I went out to see my best friend Jared. To celebrate his B-Day. He is not 23 until tomorrow, but today was the day chosen to celebrate it.

There is the Birth Day boy!It was a really big bon fire, and lemme tell you. Those things get HOTT! After I stayed and hung out for a bit, I had the opportunity to go to a costume party thrown by my friend Ben. It was a bunch of people from Campus Crusades. It was super fun. So much dancing, and most of the time I got my "crazy" on. It was very difficult though. I saw several couples dancing and enjoying each other. And, well, while I danced amidst the ladies. . . . I wanted my lady. It made me miss her fiercely. It sucks. Being so far away is the hardest thing I have ever done relationally. For Janice, I would do it again in a heart beat. I can tell you that the only thing that makes it not suck so bad, is the fact that I know I have one amazing woman waiting for me in California. Only 49 more days to go!!! Some of my favorite times at a party are when things calm down enough for some really good conversation among friends to take place. I live for those moments. I want my Janice though. 49 more days, 49 more days, 49 more days. . . . . .

leaves, video, lamda lamda lamda

The lamda, lamda, lamda has nothing to do with my day today. BUT, the leaves and video most definitely do. I went to Geology class, and then I ended up going to Kelly Chevrolet to get an oil change for the Camry. . . my new car. That is still strange for me to say. It is a nice car compared to what I am use to driving. Kelly Chevy has a good oil change for exactly $14.95, it is a really good deal.

After doing some of this and very little of that. I went to Snider and hung out with kids as they left the school. Then, I went over to Austin's house and we started raking leaves. . . in the rain, but we got um done. Skyler ended up coming over pretty quick, and the job went a lot faster.

Also, there was some really great conversation. I love me some good conversation.

After the raking was done, well we went to go to some filming all over Fort Wayne. It was amazing.

I took this picture when we were on a bus, filming part of the video we were making. We had a lot of fun. Yes we did. It was a good day today. I miss Janice like crazy. 50 days until I get to see her. 50 days can not come soon enough. I love that girl. I do indeed.

trusting

I am trying to listen, I know I don't allow things to be simple. I can only do what I know though. Right? Should I ignore what I know? Should trust happen on Earth even when it makes no sense? If you have nothing to lose, but the posibility of gaining something, why wouldn't you want to try. What is trust? The Oxford Dictionary defines it as such. . . "1.) a firm belief in the reliability of a person or thing. 2.) the state of being relied on. 3.) a thing or person committed to one's care." Okay, so if by definition you are deciding to trust someone, is it really trust if you only trust partially? If you trust only when it is comfortable, is that really trust?? Maybe it is better to express that you don't trust, than to trust only partially. These are of course my ramblings at early stage. I will put some more thoughts into it.

-Grace&Peace

Costume craziness

Hey Hey Hey!!!

So chickety check this out. At Young Life tonight, we had a good'ole costume party. Now, I do not want to disappoint you, so I am going to start off the first picture with ME of course.

Now I like this picture of me for several reasons. First, the flowers in the lower left hand corner are a nice touch. Secondly the back ground picture is stunning. And just the presence of my posture is amazing. The one thing that I don't like about the picture is that it does not do justice to my hair.My hair did look similar to this, but this was not the final product. It had so much gell in it. Like unstable amounts of gell. It was really good though. I had so much fun, I know the kids sure did. It was just a really good time. You have to believe me when I tell you that the atmosphere at CLUB is just so extremely inviting and real. There is nothing fake about how club is presented, and there is especially nothing fake about the people who go to it, kids or leaders. And that is just a really cool thing to be able to say. There were great costumes, but even better fellowship. Kids just linger behind, and that just allows me to believe we are in a place that is really healthy. A safe environment where kids feel comfortable, and most importantly the message of Christ and everything he offers is presented in an understandable fashion. I love everything about it.

Ya know what else I love? Janice Hernandez. I did something really neat for her at work this morning. . . but I can't tell what that is. ;o) I'll know if she read this post if I get a text message asking me what I did tomorrow.

Night ya'll!