Monday, May 25, 2009

breaking free

Today left quite an impression on me. It did this for many reasons. Firstly because God is doing so much in me. He is constantly revealing new truth's about myself and life in general. He is guiding me, and changing me. Slowly but surely it's happening. Tonight, all the interns and camp staff met together like we have been to share life stories/testimonies. I love this, because it gives people an open floor format to be honest and real. If you asked me, "Hey mikey, what trait do you most adore in an individual?" I would reply, "genuineness." That is what we got tonight. Not only did it come from two interns tonight, but also from our intern coordinator. It was a very powerful and moving evening. A definite bonding moment, and a very special occasion. I am constantly realizing truth about my own personal testimony, and really taking a hold of what God has allowed me to go through without holding anything back. There are areas of my "life experience" that I have kind of glazed over, maybe as an automatic pain protection reaction, or maybe because I still hold some shame in my heart for things I have done or been through. Whatever the reason may be, God is breaking down those walls and allowing me to shine through, without guilt or feelings of burden silently plaguing my conscious.

Even though I said I would come to this summer internship as an open blank book, ready for God to do whatever he needs. I still had certain expectations for what may happen. Still a very open and willing heart, but I am just set up to try to figure things out. Maybe to just see if I can figure out what God is really doing. All the preconceived notions I held about what God "might do" have been completely torn down. God does what God needs to do. I am so thankful for that; for the fact that I can't understand how He works. It just goes to show that the Master plan is only seen by the Master himself. Amen to that.

There sure is a lot of heart and love in this camp in Arizona. God has really honored me by allowing me to be a part of it.


Anonymous said...

Hi Mikey,
This camp sounds like a amazing place, a place where God can use you and grow you in His way. We are praying for you this Summer.
Bob and Karen Mansfield

Megan said...

I'm so glad it's going well for you! I was hoping that it would! :)