Tuesday, November 24, 2009
what a day, what a day in deed
Okay, so the evening was good. But I cannot let go of what happened in my Applied Leadership class. So I have been pretty down because of my recent reality attack of M/S and it's impacts in my life. Maybe not the physical aspect of it impacting me right now. But, I have been feeling all the emotional crap mixed up inside ever since I read the most recent news about Tysabri and what not. It made me really think about my future, and how my M/S doesn't just impact me. . . . Well, in my Applied leadership class. I need a new text book for the last 3 weeks of class. I really didn't want to get it, but knew I should probably at the very least check out the book. I looked all over the class to see if anyone with the needed text book. The only individual I could find was a lady named Jana. She is 38 years old, and has always seemed to be a really nice lady. But, probably one of the more unlikely individuals for me to speak to. Nothing personal, just nothing in common that would bring us together. . . Or so I thought. As I approached her after class, I asked if I could look through her book (which by the way I was worried I would have to purchase) to check out if I was in deed going to have to get it, or if I could get by just checking through one in the book store. As I was looking through it, Jana said to me, "Ya know, I could scan the pages you need and e-mail them to you." I was like, "Really, that'd be AWESOME!" She then told me that she really struggles with the tests, that she freezes up when taking them. I explained to her that I really understand how that is. I explained that I take my tests in the SSD (Student Services with Disabilities). She asked why I take my tests there, I said because I have M/S and have some cognitive impairment. She said, "You have M/S? I have M/S, and have had it for 18 years!" We talked about how small of a world it is, and after much more discussion, I found out that she is currently on TYSABRI and has been for the past year. Okay, reality check. There are only 60,700 people in the WORLD on Tysabri, and for sure under 15 on it in Fort Wayne. It turns out that the one lady in my Applied Leadership class that I was the least likely to talk to, just so happens to have the book I need, and not only does she have M/S and a back ground story extremely similar to mine, but she IS ON TYSABRI TOO! Not only does she have M/S and is on Tysabri, but she loves the Lord and God used M/S to bring her out of a lifestyle she needed to get out of, JUST LIKE ME! I felt God through this whole experience. You can call it a complete coincidence, but I know better.Tonight, we had a Campus Crusades thanksgiving. It was so much fun. But, I ate a lot of Jell-O and then right before I left, I was sort of dared to drink a large amount of Orange juice. I swear there was a half a gallon of juice in there. I downed it in one solid chug. It was amazing, but I felt like I was going to puke like crazy. Worth it? I think so.