Thursday, September 17, 2009

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I needed to vent for a little bit. Sometimes it is just good to let it out. I know I have it good, I know this for a fact. But, even people who have it good at times need to vent. This is what it looks like and sounds like.
I did something interesting tonight. I studied and studied, which was frustrating, but I got enough done to say that I was productive. Then I went downstairs (I was studying upstairs in my room) and talked with my rents. I had all this nervous energy, and my dad said, "why don't you go for a run?" I said, "I hate running, I always get side aches." My dad said, "why don't you just walk when you get a side ache?" I said, "well gee, I dunno." So, I went out for a run! It felt really good, and I went way way further than I thought I could. I could have run longer, but I figured 35 minutes of running was enough. The secret was to find a rhythm. A rhythm in breathing, steps, arm movements, etc. It all worked really good. I came home, took a conquering shower, and now I am blogging. I felt overwhelmed this morning and early afternoon. Pretty discouraged and not very good. I had to do a lot of self-processing today. God is so patient, an attribute I want to gain more and more of. I think that this whole idea of finding a good rhythm is going to be a theme. I need to find a good rhythm with school, Young Life, with struggles and fun and all things pertaining to life.

Janice, I hope you had so so so so so much fun at the concert (she went to a Blink 182 concert tonight). I am trying to listen more, to slow my thoughts and just watch for the small life lessons.

2 comments:

The Hands said...

We've all been there at some point in time. I remember having that really defeated feeling many times in college. It happens in real life too. But remember who is bringing those feelings of defeat to you...one guess! Keep your head looking up for in these times of stress you are growing and if you let it happen, you're being molded into the Man of God that you desire to be. You were'nt born without a struggle and I'm convinced that those who struggle end up with so much more rich of a reward in the end.
Angie

1 Thess. 1:2-4 paraphrased
We always thank God for you, mentioning you in our prayers. We continually remember before God the Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.
For we know, Mikey that you are loved by God, that He has chosen you, because the gospel came to you not simply with words, but also with POWER, with the HOLY SPIRIT, and with DEEP CONVICTION.

Mikey said...

thank you so much Angie. Your words are powerful; because they aren't "your" words. ;o)