Tuesday, September 25, 2007

my thumb really hurts

Today was kind of nasty because my THUMB HURTS LIKE CRAZY!! My mom picked up an application from Pathway (the church I attend) for a part time custodial position. I think it would be a really good part time position, I am excited to see if I will get this position, I sure hope I do. I think it is just an awesome way to be a part of my church....even if I am just cleaning windows. ALSO, it will not be as hard on my body. I won't have to deal with the extreme temperature changes and other things that are really hard on my body. I have known that I "needed" to get away from this job, I think when I had that incident yesterday, it was like the straw that broke the camels back. Enough was enough. I was really thinking about it today while I was working. What if I would have been on one of the big mowers, what if there would have been people around, like sometimes there are, and I blacked out??? OMG, that is not an option. It showed me that I must find something else. And so I have come to this. I am not going to worry about another job, I mean I am going to put all my efforts into getting one, but I am not going to be stressed or lose sleep over the fact. That only makes things worse for me, and I think it shows lack of faith. God has taken me through much much, much more difficult times than this. Just a minor stumbling block, that's all I see.

It finally rained again today. I love the rain. I love storms. Check it out.

I also got a phone call from a friend that made me feel very appreciated. I mean, I don't have low self esteem by any means, but this was just a confidence booster. A friend, who will remain unnamed called me in a very low point. I talked with her, calmed her, and gave her what guidance I could offer. We will meet on Friday to talk. It just makes me feel so good when people come to me for support and guidance. Kind of sounds like what a counselor does....... ;-) EVERYONE loves to feel appreciated.
"The single greatest cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips, then walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable."- Brennan Manning

1 comment:

BigD said...

I recently read your story about your fight with MS and your recent trip to China for stem cell therapy. I too suffer from a chronic illness that is at times debilitating and makes me feel horrible but is not fatal.

I wanted to commend you on your continued strength. Some day there will be a cure and you will be healthy again. I truly believe that stem cell research will find a cure for many of us with illnesses. Take care.