The top picture is of me in the company van, the picture of traffic was what i was seeing at the current time. Like i said, if you know my situation, you will know why this is a "possible issue." So, i knew, and my boss knew. wuteva.....
So, after i get off work my buddy chris picks me up, and i go to Best Buy to get a movie. It was about cocaine in the 70's & 80's. Dude, craziness! a documentary about how the columbians literally had a BILLION dollar annual business selling cocaine in Miami. Insane world. the movie is called Cocaine Cowboys!
Tony is a lot like his cat. in soooo many ways, we talked aobut that too. We talked a lot about many things. And in the heat of the battle, when he was discouraged, I was tellin him. Dude, i am not mad at you for believing something different, i just pray that you will some day understand what i see. It was so hard for him to grasp that. Why would i care aboout him? Why would God care about him? Then he started asking more questions. Why wasn't his dad ever there for him? Why did he treat his mom like shit? ya know? But when i told look dude. I have m/s but i wake up every day and i am happy. I think about the lord constantly, and i am happy. Every night, when i go to bed i am happy. & content with my life. I tell him, if i were to die right now, i would be at total peace with it. I KNOW where my soul will go. WHAT?????? he just wouldn't allow himself to grasp that. He so badly wanted me to admit that there at least has to be a possiblility that god doesn't exist.....But when i told him, look dude, god gives you that choice. I just choose to believe him. & i am blessed by it. God blesses me with the people in my life. Like this girl ryte now, stephanie. God has blessed me with her being in my life currently. And my sister Merideth, CONSTANT BLESSING. omg i love her to death. And my other sister Brandy, and my best friend Jared, and my girl Britt!!! God blesses me with so many people so much. Like the lady who wrote the newspaper article. & my doctors, and PARENTS and soooo many people. When it all came down to it. I told tony, look dude, i am not going to be mad at you for not believing. & i don't want this Debate to effect our friendship in any way. He looked at me differently. Almost as if to say....wow, mike does care for me. He cares for me in a way i don't even care for myself..................i saw that feeling in his eyes. & you wanna know how God blessed me because of it. When tony dropped me off at my home. He told me. when i shook his hand and thanked him for being my friend. He told me, Mike thanks for the advice. Thanks for caring. And i got out of his car, and he drove off. But let me tell you. I had a huge grin on my face, and as i write about it, my eyes tear up. Because it was God's amazing power that allowed him to work through me. I was simply a vessel for God's kingdom tonight..It is so awesome. I love being a part of God's plan. And i want to die every day to his plan. I am working on it slowly, and it is slowly taking over my life. I love people, i love god, i will make people feel good about who they are, and who god is, and how it corresponds with each other. If i can get people to see and understand the feelings and belief's i know they will follow God's path. Maybe not in the immideate future, but it will tug on their heart. I have that as an absloute truth in my life. I do not ever doubt it. Not even for a second, if i ever even get close to thinking that, i fall on my knees and & for strength from god, for my faith. I hope i am not babbling, i am trying to get accross that God is awesome, and he honors obedience. Thats all
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