So, while I am driving to work, I feel horrible. I just put myself in my dads shoes for a bit. He must have felt so bad when he hit my lil smurf mobile. Then I thought to myself, "Mike, you ungrateful punk, why don't you just check yourself & I remembered when I took my moms car into the corn field. I can't wait to see my dad so I can give him a big hug, and tell him it isn't a big deal at all. Poor guy!
I get to work, smiling and in an up beat mood. Saying hello to everyone I pass, and then on the phone, I am just power driving the kindness. Then, the director person or just someone of authority said he needed to speak with me as soon as I am done with the phone call that I was on. He said we needed to take a little walk. We went down to talk with Cher, the HR rep for SIRVA. Long story short, there are a lot of finicial issues that are putting a massive burden on SIRVA and they have to cut the most recent TEMP positions to try to make up for the finicial down fall they have been in. I felt like I just got blind sided. I had to clear out my desk, and I was escourted off the property. I kind of felt like, "what the heck just happened?" So as I am driving home, I am in really deep thought. I decided not to get on the interstate, because I was just not concentrating very well. I took the long way home, HWY 30 to Coliseum. I wasn't thinking about anything, I didn't hear the music that was playing, I was just barley there enough to drive straight and stop at the lights. I was just deep in bewilderment, wondering what just happened that morning. Then, song # 17 started playing. The name of the song was El Shaddai. In Hebrew, El Shaddai is usually translated "God Almighty who is all sufficient". The song had been playing, but my ears seriouisly didn't pick up on the words until this verse started playing:
you're my provider, you're my provider
and father I worship you
I felt His comfort, and it was almost as if he just took over my speakers and kind of shook me a little bit so I would pay attention. Even in the negative, I SERVE AN AWESOME GOD! As far as work goes.....well, I guess I will have more time for Young Life and the Gymnastics team. I am not even fretting.
(This song is amazing, I LOVE THIS SONG! If anyone anywhere in the world would like for me to E-Mail them this song, I would be more than happy to. Just send an E-Mail to mobileRILEY@gmail.com and put El Shaddai in for the subject. I will just reply with the song attached to the E-Mail. I paid for the CD, so it is legal. I won't even write or ask who you are, i'll just send the song.)
My day ended in the most fab way possible. I got to spend some time with Amanda. She forgave me for being an amazing jerk. I am so glad to because I forgot about how much fun we have together. We could do nothing, and have an amazing time. There is so much laughing and I can't believe how much of a jerk wad I am. When Lauren & I had our "fling," I just forgot about Amanda, I am quite ashamed, and really there was no reason why she had to be so good to me, other than her just having that kind of personality. I am thankful for Amanda, I vow never to let that happen again. MARK MY WORD BLOG!