reality check

I took some time out this morning, or maybe God made it so. I had all intentions to wake up at 7:15AM and get my butt to the Y to work out. I set my alarm, but when I woke up at 9:10, I had no idea why I wasn't working out. So, I took a little time this morning to wake up, eat some food, t.v. and then I went down stairs, got my Bibles around and prayed. Prayed that God would get me back in tune with where I need to be. I wrote this in my journal, I want to share it.

7-24
Yesterday my mom and I went to Indy for a Doc. appt. It was probably the best exam I have ever had at the M/S center. She (doctor/nrurologist) said my strength was great and coordination was supurb. She decided to keep me on the Tysabri for at least (minimum) another 6 months after these first six are up. On the drive home we (mom & I) talked about many things, one of the things she said to me/warned me about was to be careful. She said, "as you become closer in your relationship with Christ, the devil will find new ways to attack you." In my case right now, it's almost like the devil is using old tricks to lure me back in. I have to stand firm in the Truth. I can't listen to the worlds standards or pretend like I have to live up to them. Purity, humility, honesty, pridlessness, servanthood, and a heart for Christ should be the most important things in my life. Not a beautiful (physical) girl friend, money, nice car, or even wordly success.....as hard as those things are to say, I CAN'T let those things drive me in this life. (Matthew 5:20) Until I am sincere in my faith, practicing my beliefs without hesitation, I'm not living the way He intended for me to be living. From Oswald (my devotional): "Your motives must be so pure that God Almighty can see nothing to rebuke." This is a good reminder because that is what I really want in life. That is what I constantly want to attain. That is the standard I must hold myself to.I got my quiz back today, and just as my suspicion is confirmed, I DID REAL GOOD ON IT!!

That is such a good feeling, especially considering the fact that all the stuff we went over yesterday and today is so horribly confusing, I am going to have to study it all weekend to try to make sense of it. ARGHHHH!

G'Night