Saturday, April 05, 2008

I want to forget today

Well, it was such an amazingly nice day today, I decided to do some reading on the porch. SOO NICE! Shelby decided to join me, and she brought all of her toys, one at a time out on the porch. It was pretty funny. I am really digging this book Where is God When it Hurts? by Philip Yancey. It gives incredible insight as to why things are the way they are. I'm really liking it a lot.

This evening my friend Ryan and I went to an art gallery at Lynn's school. The art gallery was awesome! Her friends were not. I acted like a total hypocrite, and actually verbally assaulted one of them out of pure frustration. I immediately felt horrible, and didn't even appologize. It's just that this guy friend that she frequently talks about in such high regard was a complete Jerk, extremely prideful, and swore like a sailor. I was so disappointed, because I wanted him to be mature, and likeable. I'm such an idiot for the way I treated him, I told him he wasn't intelligent because of the way he spoke, and that it offended me. I couldn't believe the words coming out of my mouth as soon as they exited......but I said it, and then I was chastised by him and his friends for saying it. Once it got completely awkward, Ryan and I left (Ryan and I took our friendship to the next level tonight though, WHICH WAS AWESOME!). This all took place in her dorm room by the way. I called her and apologized, the whole time she was telling me she was sorry for how Matt(her friend) spoke. I'M AN IDIOT! I bet he holds Christians in real high regard after that one. What a way to share the love of Christ......(deeply disappointed in my actions which were pushed out by frustrations) I would like nothing more than to forget today completely, but I need to learn from this so that is what I need to do.

Evening..instead of Good evening, because it was not that good, it was...."i'm an idiot"

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You know Mikey, the bible doesn't say that as CHRISTians that we can not get angry and frustrated. That is a normal reaction to the environment you were in. I have told people many times that their mouths offend me. The Christian walk is not an easy one. Our road is narrow and rough but in the end we see that it was all worth it. Chalk it up as a learning experience for the next time you come in contact with someone like that again. Talk to you soon little brother. Troy