Tuesday, October 23, 2007

The results are in

Today was up and down. I did get a chance to make some important phone calls though. These calls were to help a friend in Texas prepare himself for a successful fundraising campaign. I like to send positive reinforcement his way out of the blue, when I feel he may need a little. When I spoke with him on the phone today he sounded motivated and in good spirits. He knows he has a big task in front of him, but is willing to combat what seems very difficult with a solid frame of mind.The sky lit up this evening like a whirl wind of pink, yellow, orange and blue frosting all mixed together on top of a beautifully decorated birth day cake. It was almost magical. I LOVE this time of year. I am so grateful that I live in a place that gets to enjoy such natural beauty.
Getting an MRI can be so deceiving. You can feel perfectly fine, life can be going as normal as can be and BAM! The results come in. Now, when I have an MRI done just out of routine, like the one I had yesterday. It is safe to assume that there is nothing to worry about unless you hear otherwise. With that in mind, I wasn’t “planning” on hearing any results until November 12th when my next doctor’s appointment is scheduled. Well, sometimes things just don’t get to go as you would wish they would. The Indiana Center For M/S left a message on the house phone. They informed me that when they compared the MRI that was taken yesterday to the MRI that was taken a year ago, they found “enhancing lesions.” They also told me that the appointment needed to be rescheduled for as soon as possible. This is slightly alarming to me because everything seemed to be going so well. I find myself asking, “how enhanced are they?”

That is the bad news; the good news is I have made a mini break through within my own thinking. I was talking through instant messenger with my friend Scott when I started thinking about my current deposition. I mentioned this to him, and in fact the words in italics were copy and pasted from our conversation. so, inside I am thinking...............DAMNIT, CAN'T I GET A BREAK!!! I GO TO CHINA, DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER…. I then catch myself. None of it should be in my power to begin with. If I am so willing to give all other aspects of my life to Christ, why is it so difficult for me to hand over my health? Well, if I am to answerer that question honestly, it’s probably because it scares the crap out of me. I desire a normal life; wife, children, working legs, job, house, grandchildren. If I just trust that God’s will is the perfect situation, then I actually have to believe it. I ask myself again, “What if it’s not in God’s will for me to be perfectly healthy, what if I end up in a wheelchair?” I have to be ok with whatever it is that God has planned for me. I really do. I believe that in order for me to have a healthy, mature, satisfying relationship with my eternal father, then I have to be ok with all the nonsense that COULD come my way.

In the later part of the evening, I went and saw a movie with Amanda. We went and saw a movie that isn’t playing with the mainstream movies. It’s called, “Death at a Funeral.” We saw it at the Cinema Center on the campus of the Indiana Institute of Technology. They actually have a really nice theatre. It was a good movie to see because it was funny, and took my mind off the rubbish. After the movie, we both went home. It really was a hilarious movie. Click the link to watch the trailer. Death at a Funeral Click the tie, once you click the link.

That was my day.


Sharon said...

isnt it annoying when doctor's leave stuff so vague like that?
i'll be thinking about you over the coming weeks...please keep the world informed about whats going on!

Mikey said...

I will share everything just as soon as I am informed.


Anonymous said...

Think of it this way: the enhancements could have happened BEFORE the stem cell therapy.